Hey guys it’s been a while and i really do apologize again but i feel as if I’m just going to do this over again in a couple months. School has been taking up the bulk of my time, but its been real difficult to keep my grades up. I’ve been in this slump that’s just been getting worse. Finals, maybe? That sure does’t help. I really want to try and use this blog, but I now doubt it’ll have much to do with solely my transition. I’ll talk about my life and I’m quite sure that most of you will grow bored of my dull life. Well I should update what’s been going on recently. To start off, I found myself this amazing girl, completely breathtaking, and I’ve been aware of her existence for the past two or three years. Oh man, guys she’s wonderful and I could go on and on about her. I can honestly I’ve never felt like this for anyone and I still can’t believe that i can call her my girlfriend. It is just astounding and I’m baffled by it. Anyways, I’m getting off track here, but I have a girl who respects me and loves me as the man I am. On a related note, my best friend resents this relationship, and his moodiness about it has become quite the nuisance. I care about the guy, but he hasn’t even given me an explanation for his actions on the topic. I’m honestly at a loss for words at his new hobby of sending me mushy, depressing poems and tidbits. Also, my mother has reverted back to her somewhat neutral stance on my gender problem, but she’s been trying to help me find a therapist. Recently, I’ve informed her of my panic attacks and I’m not sure if I need to take medication for my anxiety. I think that’s another reason she’s trying to help me, but she’s convinced that I’m making up my problems in my head and that I need to get out more and become more social. She also thinks that my gender confusion stems from my Asperger’s , even though I was diagnosed with it at a very young age and have been told that I probably don’t have it or if I do it’s a very high functioning form. At the beginning of my major questioning of my feelings I had taken that into account, especially when I desperately wanted my thoughts and my emotions to be something other than transsexualism. It was something that had given me major doubts, since I had little understanding of it. This post is really just all over the place, but if anyone could possibly help me out here, with anything, it’d be greatly appreciated and I hope all is going well with your own lives.
So I’m getting into pokémon again and I need people to battle. If you’d be interested drop me a message for details or something. Also I have some first generation starters that I’ll trade for current starters. :]
I haven’t been on here for a while and last time I posted I said that I’d come out to my folks. Well I started to test the waters and my mom seemed to be fine at first and my dad didn’t care either way. Eventually my mom told me her thoughts on transgender individuals which were that many regret transitioning and that it was a huge mistake that they wish could be taken back, but also that there were some who transitioning was the correct path for them. This left me quite hurt and I decided to not tell either of my parents that I never identified with my biological sex. On the otherhand my mother has been gradually becoming okay with me not being feminine. She’s made jokes about it and whenever I get my haircut asks if I feel like a boy then I need it much shorter. It makes me smile that her view is broadening, but coming out, I think, would make her try with all her might to “make me girlier”. Maybe I’m just over thinking things. For now I’ve been trying to focus all my attention on my schoolwork and figuring out exactly what I want to do with my life. I’m on my way to getting my first binder which is hopefully quite soon. Anyways I’ll try to update this blog much more often, but no promises on that. I hope all is well with everyone :].
This is the week. I know it. I feel it. I’m going to come out to my parents. I’ll finally explain myself to them and hopefully they’ll both understand or at least try to. My mother shall be the first to know. Hopefully she won’t overreact and just try to listen. I’ll update when the deed is done. Guys I’m really nervous, but I’m also excited. ._.
LOOK HERE, THIS IS A GIVEAWAY!
Here’s the deal, this is a Wacom Bamboo Pen Tablet that I got last Christmas for sixty bucks. I used it CONSTANTLY for about a week, and then I stopped using it because, in all honesty, drawing is not my passion. It is gently used, some scratches on the side where the light is on, the screen has common wear, but it’s only been used for a few days straight! I never use it anymore and it’s been collecting dust in my house, so I decided why not a giveaway?
This giveaway is open to EVERYONE.
The package will include:
- Wacom Bamboo Pen Tablet
- Wacom Pen w/ 2 replacement nibs
- One gently used nib (already in pen)
- This metal thing that came with it
idk wtf it is man
Now, for the RULES:
- Reblog ONCE only. Any more will be a disqualification!
- Likes DO count, so if you like and reblog this will get you TWO entries.
- You don’t have to be following me. I would LOVE it if you did, I reblog video game things and drawings I find cool, but seriously, don’t follow me just for this contest, that’d be lame.
- Winner will be contacted via Ask box, therefore it MUST be open.
- This Contest will end November eighteenth.
If you have ANY questions, please, ask! I’m a nice person and I love talk, just hit up my ask box.
sorry for bad picture quality i am not an artist HAHAHAHA
Had a bad day so I decided to draw my feelings. I know its really crappy but I felt really crappy.
Well I haven’t been on here for a while. I’ve been lagging it I know. I was grounded for a while for being a brat. Anyways to update you guys on my activities. It’s been rough to be honest and recently have slipped into some deep depression. My mother has disregarded everything I’ve told her. Soon I’ll write her a letter explaining myself hopefully in a much more elaborate manner. Unfortunately I’ve stopped coming out to people at school for my own safety and that of my friends. On the upside I’m getting a haircut soon also by a friend. Hopefully much more masculine so that I might feel better. Hope all is well with all of you. I’ve also been working out more often and that cheers me up.